Heaven Beside You

Despite having a spectacularly shitty week, I feel that I may have gained just a tad bit of insight from it all. Being so busy these past couple weeks with school and work, I've found myself neglecting some things that I care about. My family, pets, and the little joys in life seemingly got pushed aside for a while and I've realized how important and taken for granted it all is. While money and socializing are unarguably fun and nice to have, they aren't the most important things.

                Life has really been good to me and I haven't had a whole lot to complain about... but the thing is, you don't realize that until something puts it into perspective. Now, I've never been one for sharing my feelings, but when you manage to find something good within a bad situation, it seems like something that is worth sharing or at least putting out there. Things have been pretty stressful in my life for a while now and it was just a matter of time before reality gave me a swift kick in the ass. I've made my fair share of stupid decisions, bitten off more than I can chew, and lost a good majority of friends (although some were for the best) recently but little did I know how minor those things were. This week one of the few people I talk to refuses to talk to me, I've messed up at work, gotten the flu, and then on Friday I got pulled over going 46mph in a 25. This could be a regular week for somebody else, but to me, this was really terrible. So on Saturday I came home to find my family outside and I was relieved to think that I'd finally have some time to relax and catch up, but then I saw their somber appearances and knew something was wrong. It turned out my grandfather had passed earlier that day. I've been lucky enough in the past that I haven't really dealt with death, so  admittedly, it hit me sort of hard. After some time to reflect, I realized it was probably the best possible outcome and that we should all be as lucky as to die in our sleep at age 94.

                For obvious reasons, this weekend could have gone a lot better, but given the fact that the situation wasn't changing anytime soon, all you can do is make the best. Life is fragile and what matters shouldn't be taken for granted. I'd been meaning to go out and visit my grandpa soon, and maybe had I not been so busy I would have. So things have been put into perspective for me this weekend, and I need to realize more often that the little things are unimportant. Getting yelled at by your boss, failing a quiz, getting pulled over...those are all things that will get better, and you'll probably forget next week. But a life isn't. Life can suck, but death definitely sucks more.